Is he giving up on me?

Welcome back world, I know it's been a while since we've talked but I've had a lot of issues going on in my life... But let's get to today's discussion...

Have you ever felt as if you were by yourself and nobody cared? That's how I've been feeling for about a week. I know there's people out there that care for me but their just not showing it. I feel as if THE ALMIGHTY GOD has left me, or just distanced himself from my life and I can't deal with that. I need him here to guide me, to take me by the hand and help me stay focused. I'm trying to make sense out of why I feel like this, but I really can't.... Maybe it's the fact that I'm hurt pretty bad, I got a cold, and my fathers birthday is Saturday and he's no longer here...IDK... but this feeling hurts a lot. Since my daddy is gone I've been looking to God as my father, but I don't feel his presence near me, around me, or anything... Sometimes I wish I could give my life so my father could come back to earth and live, I truly miss him... I think I'm loosing it.... Maybe I'm not, maybe I just really want to be with him, but I know I can't right now... Well world I just need this one favor from y'all, and that's to pray for me because this has been a rough week for me... I would really appreciate that, THANK YOU!!!


Love Y'all,

J.Monay

Do I exist to you?... Cause I feel invisible...

Nothing seems to be the same anymore, I just want things the way they were before.

The relationship I had with the person I love so dear and hold so near isn’t the same and I don’t what to do… I can’t talk to this person and tell them I love them with all my heart. It seems as if nothing is ever good enough for them. I try my hardest to please them and they don’t except it. It hurts so bad to not be loved the same way you love someone. I wish things were different, sometimes I feel as if I’m not there, like I never existed. What more can I do for this person that I love so much?

God help me, I need you more than ever now, I need your guidance… Show me where to go, show me what to do, show me how to love as you did...

Nobody knows my pain, my suffering, my depression, my drama... Does anybody care?

To the person this refers to I want you to know that I love you and no matter what I will always love you.... Your my heart, my soul, my everything... Without you I can't breathe, you gave me life, and I Thank You for that!!!