Is he giving up on me?

Welcome back world, I know it's been a while since we've talked but I've had a lot of issues going on in my life... But let's get to today's discussion...

Have you ever felt as if you were by yourself and nobody cared? That's how I've been feeling for about a week. I know there's people out there that care for me but their just not showing it. I feel as if THE ALMIGHTY GOD has left me, or just distanced himself from my life and I can't deal with that. I need him here to guide me, to take me by the hand and help me stay focused. I'm trying to make sense out of why I feel like this, but I really can't.... Maybe it's the fact that I'm hurt pretty bad, I got a cold, and my fathers birthday is Saturday and he's no longer here...IDK... but this feeling hurts a lot. Since my daddy is gone I've been looking to God as my father, but I don't feel his presence near me, around me, or anything... Sometimes I wish I could give my life so my father could come back to earth and live, I truly miss him... I think I'm loosing it.... Maybe I'm not, maybe I just really want to be with him, but I know I can't right now... Well world I just need this one favor from y'all, and that's to pray for me because this has been a rough week for me... I would really appreciate that, THANK YOU!!!


Love Y'all,

J.Monay

Do I exist to you?... Cause I feel invisible...

Nothing seems to be the same anymore, I just want things the way they were before.

The relationship I had with the person I love so dear and hold so near isn’t the same and I don’t what to do… I can’t talk to this person and tell them I love them with all my heart. It seems as if nothing is ever good enough for them. I try my hardest to please them and they don’t except it. It hurts so bad to not be loved the same way you love someone. I wish things were different, sometimes I feel as if I’m not there, like I never existed. What more can I do for this person that I love so much?

God help me, I need you more than ever now, I need your guidance… Show me where to go, show me what to do, show me how to love as you did...

Nobody knows my pain, my suffering, my depression, my drama... Does anybody care?

To the person this refers to I want you to know that I love you and no matter what I will always love you.... Your my heart, my soul, my everything... Without you I can't breathe, you gave me life, and I Thank You for that!!!

It's a New Year... it's time for a change... I'm lettin go... U should do the same...

What happened in 2008, really shouldn't matter anymore... It's a new year a new day and it's time for a change...
All the he say she say should stop, and all the "oh she looked at me funny imma beat her ass" need to stop... we're all young adults and we should act like such....
All the "oh u a swagger jacker, u tryna dress like me" needs to quit as well... just cause u and somebody else like to dress the same don't mean they a swagger jacker....
All the comments thats made about people when their name is brought up needs to quit..."aw so and so a hoe man... or she a bussa" that needs to stop unless u have proof of these things u shouldn't say anything... even if u know about or seen these things u still shouldn't say anything, because it's none of your business what that person does...
But anyways just act your age instead of your height...
we in highschool, grown as hell and people still actin like lil ass kids.....
this is my request for 2009....

The Reason why Niggaz Cheat....

Wat up stalkerz...

Welcome back to my world...

Topic:

The Reason why Niggaz Cheat

Discussion of the day:

I'm pretty sure that we've all experienced getting cheated on...
A lot of ladies say they don't know why their man cheat...
Well I'm here to tell u why they cheat....
Niggaz cheat because they either tired of wat u got, bored, or jus found someone else who does it better...
Don't trip ladies, cuz I'm sure yall cheat too...
Yea, I know yall lookin like no she didn't go there yea I did....
And yall do it for the same reason niggas do it...
U either tired of the "d" he got or he jus ain't good...
So wat do u do?... U go and find a nigga that can really put it down and that can really make u happy....
Ladies if u cant find the right one, don't trip it's jus a matter of time when you'll find him, and to my fellas the lady of your eye or the woman you desire is comin to you...
so sit back and relax, y'all gon Mrs. right or Mr. right, so stop lookin for Mrs. and Mr. right now!!!

Fuck U Think This Is???

Wat up yall...
Man I don't even know what to say to yall 2day...
I jus hate how when u try to help a motha fucka and they ass ain't gracious enough to say thank you I appreciate it, but instead they yell and cuss sayin all types of shit... BITCH... FUCK U THINK THIS IS?... U need to be happy that motha fucka wanna help yo ass, I don't give a fuck if u don't need it...its nothin like havin extra help in yo life.. u feel what I'm sayin.... To the motha fucka this refer to don't trip I ain't mad... Jus kno that life comes full circle... believe that shit....

FUCK U.....HAVE A NICE DAY!!!!!

Fake people tryna stunt...U need to quit...

Topic of the day: Fake people tryna stunt...Quit that shit...
Welcome back blog stalkerz... Yea today we talkin bout fake people tryna stunt. That is so freakin annoyin to me... If u kno u can't afford that stuff u talkin bout, then shut up...
Jus save yourself the embarrassment of gettin put on blast, like real talk cuz if I find out who tryna stunt imma call'em out on it...
The main people that be tryna stunt is these hoez... they stay tryna act all hard and shit when they friends around, but when they alone they ain't nothin but some scary ass bitchez...
But don't get it twisted the niggaz be tryna stunt as well....
Actin like they got doe up the ass but, all the Red Monkeys, Jordans, and Miskeen are fake az hell....
Not only are they clothes fake, but so is their jewelry....
Talkin bout they paid so an so amount for they earrings, and they know they paid .99 cent for 'em....
Man that shit is stupid....
If u ain't got the money u ain't got the money, chill out deal wit wat u got....Fuck....Be grateful for wat u got....

Bitch Niggaz, Bitchez, and Hoez... I'm tired of 'em...

Wat up people...
I got a lot of stuff on my mind that I need to get out...
Let me let u kno'... If u readin this and u think I'm talkin bout u, stop and ask yourself this question..."Do I act like a Bitch, a Bitch Nigga, or a hoe?" If u get no for all of these then u have nothin to worry about, but if u get yes for more then one of these, that's when u should worry...
Any who let jump into this thing, shall we?....
There so many different types of niggaz in the world, but there's only one type of nigga that really pisses me off... U kno' wat kind of nigga that is... A "Bitch Nigga!" Do u kno' wat a "Bitch Nigga" is?... Well let me tell u... A "Bitch Nigga" is " a nigga who talks shit then when is bulked up to fight, he refuses to because his bitch-like instincts told him to back down or run away. Thus, a bitch-ass-nigga." I've ran into hella bitch niggaz over the years, and let me tell u... I WANTED TO JAW EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM NIGGAZ!!!
Now lets jump into the topic of "Bitchez"....
Man let me tell, I can't stand "bitchez"... and trust me if I could fuck all'em mutha fuckaz up at one time I would... I think we all kno wat a bitch is...right? Just in case u don't imma tell u and let u kno...
A bitch is " a woman who for one reason or another deserves a good bitch slap." I kno a lot of bitchez that jus need to be slapped tha fuck out of... like real talk, and before the year is over imma slap all'em bitchez!!!... U kno who u are...so when I come to u don't be shocked!!!

Last but defintely not least on my list... "HOEZ"... boy, boy, boy... its alot of those where i cone from... But u kno wat I don't understand is why some of the biggest hoez, wanna call me a hoe... Bitch get yo shit str8 before u try and come at my head... and if a hoe got sumthin to say I suggest u say it to my face, cuz when it get nack to me and talkin hella shit imma fuck u up, plain and simple... But any who we all kno wat hoez are... I'm not even finna explain wat a hoe is... if I was that low down I tell to go ask a certain person, but I ain't no low down azz bitch like the rest of these fake azz, hurtin azz, stank azz hoez... But imma close this wit sayin... all the shit I jus got done talkin bout is real, and if anyone of these mutha fuckaz approach me...IT'S A DONE DEAL!!!!!

FUCK WIT ME IF U WANT 2!!!!